And I suddenly felt the taste of a blueberry pie.....and maybe the wish of kissing Jude Law

There is nothing like the movies...good movies, the rest just makes you think about how could you've spent the money on something else. Movies are such humor up lifters!
I saw My blueberry Nights a few days ago and I add it to my favorites list. It's an unusual movie, it's not the typical romance...in fact, for being so close to what love is about in real life it made it even better. The soundtrack was amazing, and of course, just for having Jude Law in it makes it all worth those few € (actually the ticket price is not very low-cost this days).
Is the first time I saw Norah Jones act, I prefer her singing but it was ok. Natalie Portman and Jude Law are naturals at making us believe that they are the character (you just feel like you know them forever) and in certain point of the film, you see Cat Power being contemplate with a Jude's Kiss....LUCKY b***!
What makes the movie so unique in it's own kind, is how it portraits human relations and how our stories can cross the destinies of someone else. At times things seem though and like you are getting to the bottom of a pool and suddenly you give an impulse with your foot and you gain strength to go to the surface again. Sometimes we are just on "the wrong side of the street".
After so many cigarettes and blueberry pies, I left the cinema wanting pie, my company wanted to smoke and both of us wanted to kiss Jude Law. I can't stop wondering why he is so damn good looking!

If you have the time or the patience, go see it. Its a good movie and gives a romantic boost to any busy week. :)



Have a great week!

Hum...LOOKS SO GOOD!

The World is full of appearances (countdown post until the end of my 2 decades)

When we born, our image of the world around us is in constant change. In childhood, everything is possible and everything seems real. Appearances lead us to believe that what may be just a cover is in fact the truth about something or someone. We spend those years learning about appearances, not as appearances but as the definition of things and how they look to us. With teenage hood, we learn that not everything is exactly what it seems and your beliefs start to change. In my opinion, what makes teen years so painful is our confront with what's behind the appearance. Our perceptions change so quickly and so drastically. Without asking, everything changes including time it self.
In this last years of teenage hood, I've learn how it is important, for our emotional and conscience sake, to understand that not everything is what it seems. It's really crucial to understand that we can not say never because never is synonym of happening (whether you like it or not), we can't judge because in the same way we judge, we can be hardly convicted. I have learn that it is better to be a mere observer, the person who can describe happenings and not give his/her opinion; we never know when our beliefs are truth and when they are far from it; we will regret our cruel thoughts many years after learning that it was a mistake. Life is an ambiguity with extra misreadings.
Years from now I will look back and see that the ones I thought their were happy, were actually miserable and lonely, the ones I thought they had it all were actually searching for them selves and in the end I will, like many of you will, understand that we were the lucky ones after all. Ironic, isn't it ?
In our journey, we need to learn how to be with our selves that is the only way you can face changes like a positive thing and not like something the world is trowing at you. We will change with years but our essence remains the same.

This is the start of several post until my 20th birthday and I hope to count with your company. :)

Have a nice weekend!



The video is just too tacky but I couldn't find this music without ant tacky videos attached. Sorry about that :P

Folders Spring Cleaning

Today I gained the courage to actually do spring cleaning. Let me tell you, I feel exhausted and grateful because there is a year ahead before the next Spring. I wonder how many man question the work of housewives....IS THOUGH AS HELL!

Besides the vacuums, changing beds and washing walls (yes, I do wash walls) I am also used to clean my PC folders. Deleting images, some essays that I don't need any more and some of my Fashion folders. No, I don't clean what is out this season, that would be a major cliché, I only find things that just doesn't adjust to my taste anymore, maybe is my 20ths coming up...OH GOD I AM LEAVING TEENAGEHOOD!

After deleting and saying "naaaa, this is a keep and that is a must-go" many many times, I found some accessories and clothes tha end up not being posted, so I've decided to give them good use and dedicate this post to a era that I am leaving behind. Like many other things in my life that I need to leave behind as well, creating this entry has given me a fresh clean new start of something that I am about to become. :)


Here I leave you my finds :
Have a great week and comment comment comment!






Yes, there was a time when I was obsessed with Roxy and the surfer style...no comments on that. It turns I never had the temper or the looks of a surfer girl.


This model is for people without hips...er..not my case. Zara did had one better version of this one but I felt depressed when I try it out.

Well... There are many other things. It's not that I don't like them any more, I just feel that I am starting to have a certain taste that doesn't balance with my life changes. It's getting more substance.

I will write a bigger post soon. **

The "Sims" life

Lately, my internet connection has been failing, so what is one of my favorite occupations when this sort of thing happens (besides reading and writing, of course) ? I get in a The Sims 2 period where I creat all of my life hopes a dreams:
a great house, a job and some other things.
This may sound really geeky, but when I play this game I can't stop wishing life was this simple. I can imagine having time for everything and learning how to do almost everything in just mere seconds or after a great afternoon spent only for this purposes.

How I wish my life was that simple.

And now, I leave you with great great great and hilarious animation from a guy with great great great humor. :) ( The things you find in Youtube...never stop to amaze me!)



I am sorry for this simple post but at the moment I am searching for inspiration and preparing my self for a wedding tomorrow where there are going to be looooottt'''ssss of Spanish guys...hum...interesting.

Have a GREAT GREAT GREAT WEEK!

Tribute to my Olympic friend

I have been really tired lately and with a lot on my mind to actually write some great posts, but I must write this one since it is going to be part of History.
The ones who usually read this blog are aware that I am a fencing addicted. One of my dreams is to go to the Olympics someday. Yesterday, one of my team mates, a girl 3 years older than me, show many people what is the result of hard work, dedication and most of all believing in your self.
When I first went to fencing, she had a terrible relationship with our coach (one of them, its not actually mine at this point). She also used to had a really "nice" temper and was spoiled at times, but that didn't mean that she wasn't extremely sweet. After entering to college, her maturity has change and she have been growing up a lot in many different ways since then. She gain more responsibility and new priorities and since the beginning of last season, you could see her work her butt off to improve her technique and endurance.
Today, I am proud to say that this girl is going to the Olympics this summer. She almost killed us yesterday of an hearth attack while watching her play, but she made it and I can't be happier for her.

So Deb, this post is to you. I am so proud that I actually get emotional every time I think about this. We are all going to cross our fingers for what is going to be that one moment in your life that is going to be with you forever. 26th April will never be forgotten.

Wise up

Sometimes is hard to give your self time.

Disney Gave me unrealistic expectations about love

There are three things that make me fall asleep with a stupid smile on my face (at least a happy one):

A) Dreaming about a beautiful life with my crush. The type of life that makes Ralph Lauren publicists proud because their work actually paid off in some way...the RL way of living is now instill in my mind.

B) Dreaming about the last touch on a Olympics finale. I actually think about every single detail, how everything would happen and how, yes you guessed, my crush would run to me with a really proud expression.

C) Dreaming about my future carrier, how I am I going to be excellent and successful but will not be absorbed by my work. I picture the image of me getting home from work and....YES YOU GUESSED....I have my crush waiting for me.

*(Besides this three essential dreams that have a big role in how well my night turns, there is also the happiness felt when I know that I have a brilliant outfit for the next day, but that is just a mere detail).

-What is wrong with this ? - You ask...
Dear readers, the bad thing about this sort of dreams is the fact that I tend to project in my crush of the moment, the things I want him to have. I think in every mood, every attitude and even all the things I wish he would told me. What happens after this ?

A) He is totally the opposite and I end up with less faith in mankind;

B) I never get to meet him to actually confirm my hopeful wishes, which leaves me in a sad mood for a while but eventually, fades away with time;

C and the worst one) He ends up with my friends, cousins or who ever comes his way that doesn't include me, and this, is by far the worst.

I would like to blame Disney for this, but I can't. With time and after observing my friends broken hearths from a safe distance, I realized that my dreams are actually the safest way to keep your faith healthy. Things might not come the way we want but at least you didn't compromised with someone that never existed any way and it was just a projection of your hopes in someone else's body. I actually have learn to appreciate this dreams because they are the fun part of having crushes. :)

You can cultivate this sort of imagined stories by reading. Books have this great quality, besides many others. They allow you to experience things intensely but without hurting you in reality. You can live other people's romances.
Books and good movies are the best way to gain experience on subjects like the ones about the hearth and human relationships.

For everyone who likes reading, I advise you to read In search of Lost Time 7 volumes by Marcel Proust. If you could write down every single thing that have passed through your mind since your first day on earth until now, it would be something close to this masterpiece. You have a full perspective on how human relationships work and life itself. It's addictive!

Also, I was reading the Snazzy today and I was reading Le Voyage du Ballon Rouge Filmed artfully by Hou Hsiao-hsien and it remind me of this scene from the American Beauty, maybe the most beautiful scene I remember from any movie I saw. For him it represented life...!



Have a great Weekend !

Secret (Public) Gardens

One thing that like to see in every city I visit is the Gardens and Parks (I actually don't know the difference between both therms since English isn't my mother language).
The image I paint in my mind when I think about public parks and/or Gardens, is the idea of people living different experiences in the same place and with one pleasure in common, enjoying the beautiful nature creations and breathing fresh air, or what may seem fresh air but I don't want to bring the horrible picture of pollution to my impressionist landscape. Hum, I actually don't enjoy Impressionism but....Bah! Focusing on the subject and forgetting about this momentary brain pollution that I just had; Gardens allow us to leave part of our routine lives, routine actions in the gates that separate our everyday selves from a part of us that is allowed to run free in the walls of our minds and bodies. Oh! How I love gardens, trees, flowers and the "greens" in general. What an adorable place; where bugs stop being annoying to become pigments and fountains of colors that complete our surroundings.
I just feel sad that instead of building more public "Oasis", the real-estate companies and most of the governments are more interested in filling those spaces with horrible modern wanna be buildings that are at times so expensive that end not being useful like a public park would have been. I guess it takes an ability to see beyond the lucrative subjects to understand this subtle differences.

Oh well! Let's not lose hope and take more advantage from the parks we still "own".


Here is the music I imagine listening while I was crossing my local park:

Body Image

I admire those people that actually have the patience to count every single calorie, every single g of vitamins and ingredients that their body need. It's amazing how people find discipline for such things. But what surprises me is when it comes to human matters, you know, being the best you can possibly be, you don't find the same dedication. Funny, hein ?
The Summer is coming and with it, all the magazines are searching in their diet files to bring us the best and most effective ways too achieve the Gisele Bundchen body. Of course they don't count with our genes, I mean, in their minds who cares that our mother doesn't have the chopstick body ? After lots of painful diets we realize, that the gene issue actually matters, A LOT! So...what a women to do when she can have Gisele's lean legs ?
A few years ago this question would have a answer more or less like this - YOU ARE DOOMED! MUAHAHAH you will never face the bikini stores in the same way! - thankfully, a lot of fashion seasons later and after some minds evolution, we are finding a answer that is suitable to everyone (THANK YOOU!) - I don't care if I am not Gisele, she is she and I am a proud woman with a healthy body, that might have or not, curves but I don't give a damn because it is the body God gave me and I am taking every advantage out off it to make me live a happy life.
After so many years, I find that this is the answer most media is adopting. In a few years, companies will realize that they cannot take advantage from woman's insecurities anymore, so they will take advantage of man, something that we are starting to see. But that's their problem and not ours. Let them find a way to fight their insecurities like we did.

I feel very optimistic about this bikini season because it will be more about the sun and relaxing than comparing bodies between people with completely different genes.

I couldn't end this post without any fitness and food advice, could I ? Well, if you are hoping to start a healthier life approach:

1. See food as foil and not as enemy!
2. Move! Swim, walk, Run ( running with intervals is great to built stamina) do what ever! OH! Jump rope, it helps a lot!
   
3. Try some natural food supplements, especially if you are in a School exams period.
   
4. Find the balance and instead of depriving your self try to have a cheat day. That way you don't feel like craving everything with Sugar written on the label.
   
5. Drink more water and or Tea...my favorites are Rooibos tea, Jasmin and Red Tea (that is almost the same thing as Rooibos).
   

HAVE A GREAT AND AMAZING AND SPETACULAR WEEK!

My Sunday doodles

Today, besides studying Math (yeaaaaaaahhhh), I ate lot's of chocolate and lot's of fruit. I feel sooo nauseated. It feels like I am going to trow up at any second, but I should probably keep that to my self...sorry. :P

Besides this gourmet experiences, I spent the day listing to the new music from Yael Naim - New soul. The video clip is a bit strange but I find the rhythm lovely and perfect for a Sunday afternoon with rain outside. Some how, with my adorable play list (yes, the play list actually have that name) my room looked even warmer and cozier than usual.

In hope to bring you some of the sweetness that was a part of my Sunday, I post here New Soul by Yael Naim.


Have a great week! :)